Well, just a few weeks ago I started enjoying the fruits of my mental training and the fear of falling and lead climbing that I suffer seemed to have become weaker. Today I had a massive setback, being scared all day when working my project and suffering from too much performance anxiety making my climbing stiff and tense. I felt stronger than ever on the moves and the holds were, despite the sun, mostly enjoyable compared to last year. But my mental obstacle made it impossible to send the route today, I have another day off on sunday so I’m hoping for dry weather..
I just have to accept that this will happen, from time to time, and try not to put too much energy on analyzing why. My theory is I have not been as consistent with the mental training the last couple of weeks as I should have and that creates a rebound that I can not escape. It’s a long struggle for sure.. The positive side at least is that my physical training seems to be working wonders; my fingerstrength feels fantastic and I don’t get pumped easily. So I know what I have to work with the upcoming weeks and it sure should be more yoga and meditation than hangboard and campus!